... to all parts of the cycles 1
This is somewhere along my underworld quest journey, in Australia, 2019
… I was sitting with two women sisters …
Today. Seeing, witnessing one sister in a part of the cycle that speaks from loose ends, grief, not-knowing, doubt, and the atmosphere of „question“. It spoke from having lost connection (and through that: “being connected” to all that - which seemingly has “lost connection” - oh! what a big part of our cycling world that is!)
Even “having lost connection” - I could see from the outside - as “being connected”… It’s where we tune our ears and hearts towards to, where connection can be experienced. And at these times it’s not “the obvious” … not that, which we are used to celebrate. And maybe we need to presence these parts or have them be presenced by another in order to be able to tune in …
Listening to her … seeing her … I’m feeling this huge well of Love. Right from my heart. Seeing my sister. Seeing myself. Seeing nature in it. And truly trusting: she herself has the whole-ing abilities within her. And yes … we can support each other. Sharing our gifts - the ones that are coming from our deepest and ancient homes within. Acknowledging that we ourselves have received support and that we are made of so much. Informed by so much support along the way in different kinds - from within, from outside (and not always obvious and comfortable) …
And having let go of those parts that were ready to leave … and having integrated, which was nourishment for the next step of our embodied path on Earth. And again … letting go of even that what „we once thought real“ (to quote a poem by Rain Czupryna) - and to … weave back in again … a bit different, a bit changed. A bit more within our seat and sovereignty.
But wait … let me get this clear:
I don’t mean that we are abandoning our seat, when we are in this kind of phase of disintegration - not necessarily. What if … we would instead inquire into what it means to take our seat as this. While being this messy chaotic (maybe even beautiful), disintegrated momentary expression of life? And is this place asking from us - and giving us throughout this time?
What if … we would truly see … that we are trying to judge and avoid Life force itself, when we pull back from this phases and places of fruitful disintegration?
What if … we weren’t able to judge even one bit of who we truly are? Just for a moment? What if … we would risk seeing through thes eyes of Life - of Love? To look at ourselves …
Do we then still feel / seem to know, we - or a part of us is a mistake?
Would we still think - we are doing this wrong?
On acknowledging yourself & closeness ~ December Newsletter & Audio journey
a moment of being with yourself ::: a little journey for the end of the year ::: touching on closeness with yourself
This Newsletter turned actually out to be a little accompanied journey in support of slowing down and reconnecting with yourself - so I recorded it! I would actually recommend listening to it. While sitting, lying down, getting to sleep … taking a break …
Dear You
I'm wondering ... can this - yet another article! - become an invitation for reconnecting with yourself and tuning into a sense of slowing down ... ?
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What kind of deeper invitation might be waiting for you here ~ in this moment ... not from me, but from yourself, or from life ..?
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Let's take this moment to pause ... breathing is available. Hearing is available. There's nothing you need to do for that to happen ...
Where am I meeting you with these words? How is this particular moment on this day unfolding for you. What's the taste of this moment ... what's the sensational texture within your body ... ? How is it - to be you ... just now?
You as part of the beauty, the complexity and the mystery of this world. And also ... maybe within a certain simplicity …
I would like to invite you to inquire into the possibility of slowing ... again …
Allowing the ground underneath you to reveal itself to you ... maybe like an ancient ally ... noticing the support of that, which is already here and ... available to you. Breathing is available ... the support of the floor is here ...
And within and around this moment of you, being (with) yourself, breathing, seeing, hearing ... there is also the beginning of the last month of this year happening.
When I think about this year ... I'm wondering about your story ... wondering ... what was your experience of being alive during this year, these times? What did unfold for you and what didn't? I'm imagining all those individual stories ... threads ... all interwoven ... in one fabric ... interwoven with the stories of Earth herself, other humans and the other-than-humans ...
I'm wondering: what's your relationship to your experiences ... do you feel seen, acknowledged - by yourself and maybe by others? For the crucial moments during this year ...
Were there many moments, where you gave presence to what was alive within you? For the grief and the joy? Or was there such overwhelm, that you were carried away from even the possibility of being present with what's alive within you? And were there allies, friends, elders with you - who were supporting you in giving presence and bearing witness to your experiences?
For myself I can say, there was a very big bandwidth of experiences happening this year. Luckily I had the internal and external support to again and again acknowledge, look at and integrate those experiences. But there were also certainly times of serious overwhelm.
Back to you and your story. Maybe this - here now - could be a potential moment of acknowledgement. Acknowledging yourself. Maybe one particular beautiful or difficult moment. Acknowledgement for you. As you. As you are. Where you were, where you are now. And for everything you went through. And also to remember and acknowledge the moments of celebration during this year ... the moments of beauty.
And now ... to ... for a moment ... to be close ... very close with yourself ... and at the same ... to see yourself.
And if you want to go deeper now ...
There are more questions that I want to offer ... What is it, that you felt the deepest connection with during this year? Was there an essential thread that kept you going, when things got difficult? What kind of thread was that? Do you have a sense of that "something" and do you feel you can rely on it? Something ... within yourself? And if not that ... maybe it's the bare ground - that you can rely on. And if you want to take a moment to let this question really sink in: What is it, that you're feeling the most closeness and intimate connection with - just now?
And as this question is sinking in ... offering itself to you ... still ... breathing is available ... the floor is here ...
There is a line of a song that pops into my head: "I am closer ... to you ... than your heartbeat" ... I'll leave it here. I'll leave you with your own exploration ... with this intimate conversation that only you can have with yourself and life.
Much Love
Susanne
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I'm acknowledging the ground on which I stand. And I want to acknowledge the very fun and inspiring daily morning Alexander Technique group which I'm happy to be a guest in : ) “Breathing is available ... seeing is available” is maybe the most often repeated sentence there. Thanks for the inspiration and support, Chris and Ben!
>>> if you’re looking for online Alexander Technique session I can recommend those two from my own experience:
Chris McKay (website)
Ben Lobley (contact)
